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The road to Germany

Well, it has been a long, rough, and unexpected journey. When I look back, I am amazed by my older versions. How was I able to endure this tremendous amount of pain and suffering? How I kept fighting and planning with no sign of hope. The story began in high school, when I was so depressed because I was too ignorant about the world. I was angry with myself. Being involved in a dysfunctional and corrupted educational system only exacerbated my problems. Moving to the university made my case worse as I became emotionally and mentally unstable. There were many gaps to fill, and my skills were so limited. Many times, I was at risk of losing my mind, but I have not. I did the unexpected; I kept evolving, changing, and developing my skills in a toxic environment. This has cost me a lot of long, dark nights. But it pays off; finally, I am heading where I should be.

 

In the next couple of years, my life and character will change dramatically. Now, I know who I am, where I want to go, and what I want to do. I am so conscious of my limits and potential. What is more interesting for me is that I will operate with a better version of my mind. I just got out of depression completely recently. Now the cloud is gone, and it’s my opportunity to see clearly.





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